Hey there, it’s been a while!!!
Not just a while but a very long time. I’m sure you’ve wondered what is happening and why the ‘what’ is happening. I know you’ve missed me and I’m really sorry about that.
I’ve really stopped doing a lot of cool things. I miss a great part of me that used to do somethings. I honestly don’t know why I stopped doing a lot of good things I used to do. I’ve been trying to figure it out and I guess the fragments of my thoughts will make sense to me. You can also learn one or two things from them.
So why have I stopped doing what I used to love doing?
You have that good thing you’ve stopped doing that has made you miss the real you, find it back and you’ll get the real you back.
You know sometimes back, I had a little catarrh and my nose was blocked. As a result, I lost my taste. Do you know what I observed? I really couldn’t pick the smell of things again. I couldn’t perseive any smell. I couldn’t even sense the smell of anything. Nothing really came around. I cooked and I couldn’t perseive the aroma. I didn’t know what kind of odor oozed around me or the pleasant scents that filled the hair. Not even the smell of fish, or rice, or any food. I even used my perfume I couldn’t figure it out. I almost sprayed it into my nostrils, it was just neutral, nothing pleasant.
Imagine, I couldn’t even feel any taste. Everything had the same plane and flat taste. Nothing tasted nice. They were insipid, tasteless and tasted like nothing. The only thing I could feel in my mouth was the temperature, weight and texture of food. Nothing more.
Then I began to think. We sometimes don’t appreciate what we have while we have them. Anytime we perceive an unpleasant odor, we block our nose. We don’t want to taste something bitter, we spit it out immediately. Have you ever taken time to appreciate things? Imagine, when I had to eat, I only tried to enjoy the food using the memory of the taste.
I know you’re thinking how this correlates with why I stopped doing somethings. I guess I was too used them. I was too familiar with them that really didn’t think that they were part of the things that made me feel great. So when I was doing them, I didn’t feel their importance.
You’ll wonder why it took me so long to pick them up again since I already knew they were things that keep me going. It was courage. Starting things take a lot of courage. It takes conscious and deliberate actions with efforts. Many people like me lack the courage to start things. Some people may call it idleness or laziness. But to me, it is lack of courage. I’m sure some people will agree with me and if you don’t, it’s fine.
I’ve also got to understand that we have to consciously help ourselves to do things. If we feel that we naturally do things and we really don’t encourage ourselves to do them, we’ll just realize that unconsciously, we loose them.
I used to read books a lot. I just discovered that I stopped. I don’t know why or how. But I noticed that the day I realized wasn’t the day I started all over again. Why? It takes courage and determination to start again.When you stop doing something you ought to be doing, it takes high level of determination and consciousness to start again. It has to be deliberate. To also keep on doing things, we have to consciously make sure that we are still on track.
I find this very applicable to our walk with God. We may feel that we are close to God and nothing can make us backslide or go against Him. But while we are not taking conscious effort to follow God, we just drift off. We have to take take the pain of making conscious effort to follow Him. We need grace for each moment.
For the grace of God that bringeth salvation hath appeared to all men, Teaching us that, denying ungodliness and worldly lusts, we should live soberly, righteously, and godly, in this present world. Looking for that blessed hope, and the glorious appearing of the great God and our Saviour Jesus Christ; Who gave himself for us, that he might redeem us from all iniquity, and purify unto himself a peculiar people, zealous of good works. Titus 2:11-14
The grace of God brings salvation and help us to stay clear from sin. It helps us to deliberately keep away from sin and follow after the right things. I have now discovered that it is the grace of God that helps us to do the right things and pursue good works. He makes sure we are zealous (marked by active interest and enthusiasm) of good works.
He creates the passion, eagerness, and steadfastness to do the right things. All I had to do was to ask God for the grace to make me zealous of good works again, which He did. Trust I wasn’t ok when I lost myself. When you miss yourself, you don’t feel fine. You feel down and lost because the real you is not active. You have that good thing you’ve stopped doing that has made you miss the real you, find it back and you’ll get the real you back. I had to ask God to help me to find me back.
And now I’m back!!!
He can do the same for you, trace your steps back Him and ask Him.
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